Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Godspeed my sweet Purcey

Saturday morning we took Purcey to the vet and helped him pass peacefully without pain. I obviously cried, but the Hubby cried too. That was the first time I have ever seen him cry in almost 10 years of being together and it broke my heart.

I think this is the most difficult thing I have been through. I haven't been able to stop crying since Saturday. He was my furry baby for 12 years and now he is gone. The house feels empty. I keep expecting him to jump in bed with me in the morning when the Hubby gets up for work or greet me at the door when I get home, but he isn't there. I get up in the morning and feel kinda lost because I am used to going into the kitchen to feed him, but there is no one to feed. I miss his tiny squeak of a meow and his cuddles.

I know I just have to remember that it was better than him suffering and being in any more pain than he was already. That I saved him from a shelter and gave him a home and a full life. One that could have ended at 7 months if we hadn't adopted him. I need to believe that he knew how much he was loved and how much he is missed.

The Hubby told me that he believed that just like in my dream that my Dad and Poppy were there to welcome him and give him all the head scratching that he likes. My bestie told me that my babies are lucky to have another guardian angel watching over them.

I have been thinking over the past few days that I need to honor him in some way. I was thinking about getting him an ornament for our Christmas tree. We actually adopted him right after Christmas and he always loved sleeping under the tree and looking at the ornaments every year. I am going to have to look around.

Godspeed Purcey baby. We miss you.




28 comments:

  1. I'm very sorry for your loss, Emily. But I agree with your friends: the ones we love never really leave us. They are always there, even though we can't physically touch them. Wishing you peace during this time. I'm certain that one day, you'll all be reunited on the other side of Rainbow bridge

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  2. Oh, Emily...I cried when I read this. I'm so very sorry. Anyone who has had the good fortune to have a special animal in their family knows that this is one of the hardest decisions to make, and it's so very hard to say goodbye. Be gentle with yourself and allow yourself as much time to mourn as you need.

    I know that your beautiful Purcey is watching over you and your growing family. *hugs*

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  3. I am so sorry for your loss Emily.

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  4. I'm so sorry for your loss. Pets give us so much.

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  5. Oh sweetie I'm so sorry you lost Percey. I love the ornament idea, and you could get one that holds a picture. You could use the one above of him sleeping and then it would be like he's always sleeping under the tree!

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  6. I'm so sorry for your loss Emily! Pets are hard to lose especially when you put so much love into them as you want to add to your family. I think a Christmas ornament is a beautiful way to remember him!

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  7. I cried when I read this because I'm a cat lady too. I think it's different for people who go through infertility to lose a pet. They are so special to us because they are who we take care of instead of babies. Prayers for your heart to heal quickly. We have an ornament for our kitty, Archie, that died last year.

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  8. I, too, am balling as I read this. I have a 10 year old baby girl (calico) and it absolutely breaks my heart to read this. I am so so so sorry. I LOVE the idea of an ornament.
    I hope your heart heals quickly, but know that he will always be in your heart.

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  9. I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. You did give him a good life, one that he probably wouldn't have had otherwise. Tough decision to make because of his health, but I think, or at least it sounds like you did the right think. Remember, time heals all wounds. Thinking of you.

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  10. This post made me tear up :( so sorry for your loss. I think the ornament is a great idea. Hugs <3

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  11. Emily, I'm so sorry for you and your hubby's loss. Reading this brings back memories of wh en we lost our Kantti two years ago. I still miss him and I know how hard it is to lose a loved one. *head bonks and kitty kisses on the head* (That's something we'd say on a cat chat board I used to visit)

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  12. My condolences, Emily. Losing a beloved pet is awful. I think getting an ornament for him is a lovely idea!

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  13. I am so sorry lovely. What a little sweetie he was. I think an ornament is a lovely idea.

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  14. I'm so sorry. This is never easy

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  15. I'm so sorry. Losing a pet is one of the hardest things to go through.

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  16. We just lost out kitty last month after 14 years. I feel your pain ((HUGS))

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  17. Sorry for the loss of Purcey. Hope he is playing with the family and enjoying lots of catnip now.

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  18. Oh hun, I'm so sorry. Our first dog was 13 when she died. It's SO hard.

    Sending you tons of love.
    xoxo

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  19. Oh no I am so sorry you lost your kitty. A pet is a family memeber and when they are gone they are missed just as deeply. I know he is happy where he is now and thankful for the wonderful life you gave him. ((hugs))

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  20. I'm so sorry you and hubby had to say goodbye to Purcey. But you did the loving thing and just know that you will see him again one day.
    When Riggo and I had to do the same thing for our sweet Nick two Christmases ago, it was the first time I'd seen my husband cry too- heartbreaking on so many levels. My thoughts are with you.

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  21. I'm so sorry for your loss. Purcey was such a sweet and lovely cat. I think your plans to commemorate his time with you is perfect.

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  22. I am so sorry for your loss!! It's so difficult to lose a furry friend! He is definitely watching over you and the babies and will get lots of love up in heaven! HUGS

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  23. I am so sorry to read this - I know there's nothing I can say that will make it easier, so I'll just offer a (((hug))). Hang in there.

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  24. Support and prayers -- what a blessing that he knew he was loved and cared for by you guys for so long and that he is no longer in pain. ::HUGS::

    I think getting an ornament for him sounds like a great way for you to remember him every year (there are also tons of places that use photos so if you wanted one of him -vs. representing him- that is also possible).

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  25. Thank you so much everyone. Your comments have brought me a lot of peace.

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  26. I've been reading all of your posts and came across this one and cried. I'm sorry for your loss, Purcey was a beautiful cat and sounded like a wonderful member of your family.

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