It was negative. I'm not surprised at all.
Between last night and this morning I think I cried more than in the last few months combined. I am still sad, but pretty much made peace with it even before I got the call.
I just feel so drained. I guess it's a good thing we are taking a break.
The pull on my heart to be pregnant is so strong right now. I want to feel the baby moving inside me. It used to be just the desire to be a mother and being pregnant would be a bonus. Now, I feel like I need to be pregnant.
My bestie texted me today while I was waiting for the call. Since they moved we don't see much of each other. They were in the area and wanted to stop by. My bestie N, her Hubby and Little Z. I still don't know if it helped or hurt, holding and playing with 8 month old Z. I guess maybe a little bit of both so it evened itself out.
We will see how the weekend goes. Hopefully I will be too busy to think much.