my trip to the er

First, I want to assure you that Squirt, Roo and I are all fine.

I woke up at 6:30 this morning to go to the bathroom. When I wiped, there was bright and dark red blood soaking the toilet paper. I wiped a few more times and it didn't let up. It wasn't just spotting. It looked like the start of my period. I wasn't cramping just bleeding. I had brown and pink spotting in the past that was blamed on my cervix being irritated after sex, but this came out of nowhere. I started to cry, said a little prayer while I sat there and this wave of "everything is fine" came over me. I don't know how to explain it, but I just knew my babies were alive in there even though I can't feel them.

I cleaned up, threw on a pad and woke my Hubby to tell him I was calling Dr Monty. The answering service gave me the covering Drs number so I called and left a message. When he called me back I explained everything and he suggested I go to the ER so they can check me out. He told me the worst and best case and told me not to rush and please don't get into an accident. We both took a quick shower and we left.

The ER was basically empty when we got there so I went right in, put a gown on and they started an IV. I have never been in the ER for myself, only bringing others. I've only had an IV once 2 years ago when I had my wisdom teeth removed. I was knocked out almost as soon as it went in and it was removed before I completely came to so I hardly experienced it. The nurse tried my left forearm first and missed. You should see the bruise, it's huge! Then, he tried the right and got it.

I thought I would be fine because of all the bloodwork and needles I have experienced, but since I didn't eat and was nervous for my babies, I passed out. The Hubby told me I was gagging while I was out and when I came to they had a bucket ready for me. I'm glad because this horrible wave of nausea came over me and I threw up and dry heaved for a few minutes. Between passing out and then throwing up I was soaked in sweat, but felt great when the dry heaving passed.

I was then rolled into U/s. The tech was so nice. I laid there squeezing the Hubby's hand. The Hubby could see the screen, but I couldn't. After a few minutes of quiet I asked the tech if there were heartbeats. She said "Oh honey, yes they are moving around a lot and their heartbeats look great!" I was relieved and when I heard them I started to cry again. The Hubby told me after that he was one move at that point but couldn't see much because the tech was moving around so quickly measuring a lot so he didn't know what he was seeing. I was in there for a while. The Hubby said she was measuring a lot. Their heads, feet and he asked the tech what the color was. She apparently did blood flow. Not sure if it was their hearts or placenta. When she was done she said everything looked good.

While we were waiting to be brought back to the ER, Jason Mraz, I won't give up came on the radio. I started to cry again. The Hubby asked me if I was ok and I told him yes, I was crying because of the song. He just smiled at me.

The tech came back in and said everything looked good, but the radiologist wanted to see them herself. The radiologist was so nice too. The tech went over all the important things with her and they talked out loud so we could hear about everything. Both babies heartbeats were good. They were moving around. Roo had apparently go to sleep after the first U/s so the tech jiggled my belly a bit with the transducer to wake him/her up again. Every time she jiggled my belly I couldn't help but laugh at my stubborn little one. My cervix was long and closed. Their placentas are far from my cervix. I told them where their placentas were at the last U/s and they were in the same places. The radiologist then turned the screen and told me they are my babies so I should be able to see them. It was so great to see them moving around.

The Dr in the ER said according to the U/s, bloodwork and urine everything looked good and he is not sure why I am bleeding. He said he spared me the pelvic exam since I wasn't bleeding a whole lot. By the time we left I only had a little blood on the pad and everything new was brown. I was told to take it easy today and see Dr Monty in the next couple days for a follow up.

Thank God it stopped. I hope it doesn't happen again, but I have a feeling this won't be the last time.