cycle update and a geeky connection

I went back to the RE today for my follicle check. Today is CD 9 and according to my bloodwork I am ready to trigger tonight, so my IUI will be Tuesday morning.

My lining is 11mm which is nice and fluffy (I love that word). I am so glad I don't have any issues with that. Lefty seems to be the winner this time with a 18mm and 19mm. Righty has a 14mm, 13mm and 12mm. Does anyone know if maybe the 14 might make it to be mature enough? Even if it doesn't I have 2 good ones on lefty. Praying though that 1 or 2 on righty release something. The more the merrier in our opinion.

Oh! I forgot to mention in my last 2 follistim cycles that I do have a side effect. I get major fatigue. It usually starts around my 5th or 6th injection and from there I could fall asleep any time of the day. This time it started after the 3rd injection since I was taking 150UI from the beginning. I take at least an hour nap every day and go to bed earlier than I usually do. I'm just totally pooped. A couple of days after the trigger shot my energy comes back full. It's crazy. Anyone else get that?

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I was talking to the Hubby today about how big those breakthroughs were for me. I was looking for some "I know how difficult it is to have faith and I'm glad you are back" sort of thing. Instead I got a shrug and a "Welcome to the club. I haven't lost faith at all". I then proceeded to cry a bit.

I told him how all I wanted to hear is that he knows how difficult it is for me and that he is glad that I have my hope and faith back. He felt bad that he upset me and that was not his intention. He told me he didn't want to say he knew how I was feeling because the truth of it is he doesn't and never will. He knows how hurtful it can be when my cousins try to say they know exactly what I am going through and belittle it by comparing me wanting a baby to them wanting a house/car or something of that sort (The house comparison really happened and it still stings) and he didn't want to be that person.

I assured him that is not how I would take it from him at all. Even though he may never know exactly what I am going through and how I am feeling, he is still going through this with me. He is in the trenches and in his own way knows how it feels. Then he went off explaining how he is in the only way he knows how, math/engineering.

"Some people are mathematical and some people are emotional" he said. We both giggled. "I am like 1+2=3 and you are like 1+2= >3". He went on to, "Trying to understand when you explain your emotions to me is like me trying to explain calculus to you". I told him, "I would understand...I guess in theory". "Right" he said. "I only understand what you are going through in theory".

I love when he talks like that. We finally connect about things that may have still been confusing to each other. I don't know if you guys can make any sense of it, but to us it worked.

I love that man.