Thursday, August 9, 2012

beta #2, twitter and other things running through my brain

I am going to do bullets because my mind is racing all over the place on so many different subjects.

  • Beta #2, 16DPO/IUI is 1152. It more than doubled so I'm happy! I go back Tuesday the 14th for more bloodwork and an U/S this time! We should be able to see how many are in there!
  • I am so overwhelmed by all the comments on my last post! I have read every single one of them over and over and feel so blessed to have amazing people like you around me. I know how excited and happy with tears of joy I am when a fellow blogger is pregnant. Seeing you guys happy for me the same way completely blows my mind. I really wasn't expecting all that. THANK YOU so much for all your beautiful comments and all your thoughts and prayers. I am keeping them so close to my heart.
  • After thinking about it for a long time now, I have finally decided to join "The Twitter" Since I started blogging I have heard so much about twitter. How everyone is on it, all the conversations you have and how it's just awesome. So after meeting up with some awesome bloggers in NYC (I will eventually get to that post) and hearing all about it again, I signed up. Just did it last night and I kinda feel like my great grandma trying to use a computer. I have no idea what the heck I am doing! I managed to basically set things up and follow some bloggers I know. I understand if you want to talk to someone or tag (don't know the lingo) someone you put there @ username in the tweet. Can someone answer this please? What is with the #? I think I heard it's called hashtag? I have no idea how that works. Sheesh! Kinda jealous that Betty White knows all about this and I don't LOL! So anyways my username is @ ablanket2keep. I have not tweeted yet and I have no idea what I am going to tweet about, but I will get there.
  • Yesterday the Hubby and I went out for burgers for dinner. As we are eating Dr G my RE walks in with her kids! It was one of those moments where you think it's someone, but your brain is confused because you are seeing them in a different place. She saw me and said Hi and I said Hi back. I wanted to run up to her and tell her it worked, but I was good and left her to her family. I haven't seen her since the IUI. Oh and her kids are adorable!
  • I had my first mini pregnancy meltdown last night (that didn't take long) In the moment I felt like I had absolutely no control over my emotions and it was so crazy. This strange wave of panic came over me and I started to really ugly cry. I ran into the room where my Hubby was on the computer and in between the sobs said something along the lines of "What if there is more than one in there? Can we handle that?" The Hubby looked at me and I could see he was laughing a bit thinking oh boy here we go LOL! He calmed me down and went over all the things we had talked about in the past regarding multiples. "If there is more than one in there then we will be blessed even more" That makes me cry every time I think about it. I know we can do it.
  • Please don't be angry at me. I am really trying to not sound "smug". I feel so blessed that I am finally pregnant. I know how blessed I am that I have not experienced a loss. I can only imagine the heartache. I have only been on this IF journey for 3 years and 6 IUI's. I know there are so many who have been through more. Like everyone here I know too much, I know what could happen. I don't want to be scared and I don't want it to take over. Maybe I'm still naive, but I have so much faith that I will have a baby in my arms at the end of this pregnancy.
  • I wanted to let everyone know, I don't know when, but at some point I will be doing weekly updates and post pictures. I am going to follow in the footsteps of amazing bloggers and have a separate tab for the pics and the updates will have the week update title so if you don't want to read it you don't have to click on it. I totally understand not wanting to see pics and read bumpdates. For me 99% of the time I loved them. They gave me hope and pregnant bellies just make me smile, but there were a couple times when I just couldn't. Days where they upset me. So I put them aside and went back when I was ready.
  •  I do promise that there will be more than just pregnancy updates. I want to continue talking about other things. Please bear with me though for a little bit. My mind is reeling and sometimes the fact that I am pregnant is all I can think about.

27 comments:

  1. yay!! that doubling time is great - i'm thinking twins :-) hehe and you guys could totally handle it!! i'm excited for your u/s on the 14th (that will be the day after my beta day *fingers crossed*) i am also confused by twitter - makes me feel so old! haha i'll have to read your other comments to understand it :-) CONGRATS!! and talk about pregnancy all you want - it is nice to do a separate tab though! woohoo!

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  2. I really hope you meant 1,521 and not 11,521!!! :-D Congratulations on an awesome rising beta! Believe me, I know EXACTLY what you're going through with the whole "what if there's more than 1 in there??" A very valid concern to have -- both amazingly awesome and freaking scary as hell! But after the initial shock (of the first 3-4 weeks) it gets really exciting. :)

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    1. It was an exclamation point not a 1 LOL! Fixed it! 1152
      Thanks Jules!

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    2. Ahahaha that makes more sense now! I was worried you were having quadruplets!!!

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  3. So glad to hear about the continued good news, and I'll be reading your blog through pregnancy and whatever else you want to share with us!

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  4. That is a great number! My beta at 17dpo was 1174! Twins, maybe??

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  5. Awesome beta!!! No matter how many are in there, you CAN and WILL be fine! You're going to be a great mommy and with the help of your husband you two can handle anything! :)

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  6. Understandable that you are engrossed in your initial bloom of pregnancy. I know if I were pregnant right now I would be too.

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  7. couldn't comment from my phone but YAY for your news!! Try to enjoy it...easier said than done because I know the anxiety/worry does creep in. Praying for you!!!

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  8. What a great second beta! Yay!

    You are not smug - you are thrilled and in awe of the fact that you're pregnant. And that's as it should be! We all know how painful infertility is and we all want each other to succeed. :)

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  9. Awesome Beta! Keep up the good work momma!

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  10. Fantastic. High bête isn't automatically twins. Mine were high but there was only one sac and one heartbeat and now we have one amazing baby.

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  11. Congratulations on a fantastic second beta!!! Fabulous news!

    And I'm with Jenny: you're not smug, you're just super excited that after 3 long years and many IUIs you FINALLY got the news you've been longing for. I'd be worried if you weren't somewhat excited. Hence, don't worry about it. There is nothing but love and happiness being sent your way.

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  12. I'm excited to see how your baby/babies are doing in there.
    Snuggling in for a loooong journey, I know!


    I'm so excited for you. I've been absent from Blogging since I've been pregnant but I sat down tonight and read all of your back posts and I'm so stinkin' happy for you <3

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  13. LOVE what your husband said. :) What a fabulous partner you have!!

    I don't think anyone thinks you're smug ... you are one of the sweetest, most generous and genuine people out there.

    And if it makes you feel any better, twitter totally confuses me, too. I am trying to learn. :) I'm @justinelevine ... follow me and I'll follow you!

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    1. I meant to add "we'll be lost together." ;)

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  14. This is all so exciting! I can't wait for your bumpdates!

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  15. It took me several months to figure out Twitter, I just took a class on it and I'm still struggling :) It's definitely an acquired skill. I was so happy to see your icon yesterday :)

    Can't wait to hear about you U/S: so excited for you!

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  16. I joined twitter quite some time ago, but haven't really ever used it much, it isn't so popular here in Finland (slowly becoming more so) and I just don't have the time for it. A hashtag (#) is like a label on your blog. It puts it in a category, and can make topics easy to find especially if many others are using the same "tag" or if you have a series of tweets with the same topic. At least that is my understanding. :D

    You are sounding extremely happy, not smug. And after 3 years and many IUI's, you have a right to be happy. It is definitely hard to feel the way you do at times especially when you know there are others out there who have had a longer and harder (losses) journey than yourself and who are still don't have a BFP. I know I felt the same way (and sometimes still sort of do) at the beginning of my pregnancy, but don't let it bring you down too much.

    I can't wait for your weekly updates and keeping my fingers crossed that your pregnancy is as easy as mine has been. I keep telling people that the pregnancy has been the easy part so far, although I don't think most people realize I am referring to the years of IF treatments as being the hard part and definitely not when the kid comes (although I know that will bring its own set of challenges).

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  17. Just wanted to say congratulations!!! I am very excited for you and your betas sound great. Wishing you a smooth and successful pregnancy :)

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  18. So so so so SO happy for you! This is very much deserved because you are going to be a great mom!

    Yay!

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  19. You definitely do NOT sound smug, although I remember worrying about the same thing, so I guess it's a 'normal' thing to think about it in instance where you struggled to get pregnant. I've been taking weekly pictures since the day I found out, and even though I don't have a ton of readers, I still haven't posted any (although I plan to upload some soon) because I've been half-worried about upsetting people.

    BTW, I have to tell you that I read your previous post, commented to it, and then my DH walked into the room and I burst out crying when he asked me to tell him what I was smiling about so hard as I was typing my comment. I am just so incredibly happy for you and couldn't hold it in!

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  20. Thank you everyone! It is really nice to know I'm not the only one who has felt this way. I keep rereading your comments every day and it keeps me calm and happy. I love you guys!

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  21. I don't know why but somehow this whole blog dropped off my reader. Anyways!! It's back on and I wont miss important updates anymore. Yeah.

    Honey, you started this blog as a way to vent about your frustrations of not being able to conceive and now you have so you have EVERY right to blog about your pregnancy. This sense of guilt is a rite of passage for every new pregnant infertile. Enjoy your pregnancy and revel in it.

    The best bit is about 9 months away!!

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  22. I totally "get" this. Being pregnant is all I could think about when I was pregnant.

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