I just want to shout it from the roof tops!!! but I won't because 1) it is entirely too early and 2) I don't think I should be climbing up on my roof! I will just have to shout it here then!
Holy crap did those words just come out of my mouth?
I keep saying it over and over again and it still doesn't feel real.
I need to get this all down now before I forget.
So when we woke up this morning the Hubby still hadn't given me a straight answer. To pee or not to pee? So I stood there in the bathroom trying not to pee myself while he mulled it over. He was worried about us having a false either way. I finally told him all the symptoms I have been having and he finally said "Let's do this!"
I knew I had tests in the drawer, but didn't know what kind. I found a digital CB and one of those stupid EPT blue plus sign ones that I guess came with OPKs. I peed in a cup and dipped the digital. I felt so confident while doing it. I just felt so good about this cycle!
The Hubby asked me how long it takes and I told him the directions said within 3 min. Well not too long after I said that the hour glass disappeared and PREGNANT showed up. I gasped, pointed at it and said OMG! We looked at each other with our mouths open. I quickly grabbed the other one and dipped it. Sure enough as my pee was making it's way across the stick the plus sign showed up right away! Those 2 sticks are still sitting on the bathroom sink and I love looking at them every time I go in there!
I started to cry and the Hubby gave me a big hug. I don't remember much being said. I was crying and Hubby was grinning ear to ear. I do remember a whisper in my ear "3 years in the making".
He went off to work and I went to have my beta drawn, 14DPO. I couldn't stop smiling the whole way there, during my test and home. Then, when I got home the nerves hit which had me running to the bathroom quite often. My intestines don't like me today.
I sat and crocheted for what felt like an eternity and at 1:30 I couldn't take it anymore. I called my nurse. As I started to talk I started crying, asking her to please give me my results because I got a positive at home and I couldn't wait any longer. She was so sweet like always and told me to hang on.
When she came back on the phone I heard "Well, you definitely are pregnant! Beta is 460! Congratulations!" I started crying again. I asked her if she thought there was more than one in there and she told me maybe or I could just have a really strong one in there. We would find out in a couple weeks. She told me to come back Thursday, 16DPO, for my second beta. I thanked her over and over and hung up.
I texted the Hubby and told him the number. His text back made me cry.
"That is absolutely fantastic! Our 3 years of trying are paying off! I love you beautiful and can't wait for you to be a mommy!"
I AM a mommy. I have a little being growing inside me right now. I know there is no guarantee, but I am not going to live in fear. I can't promise I won't be scared if something happens, but this little being deserves every bit of me no matter how long he/she is with us and he/she is going to get that.
Hello little being in there. Please grow big and strong and stick around for a long time. We have been praying for you for so long and already love you more than you will ever know.
THANK YOU THANK YOU everyone for all your prayers, good thoughts, good luck, crossing of fingers/toes/eyes, thinking of me and all the hugz! IT WORKED!!!