I decided there will be no POAS till it is a pregnancy test! Over these past 3 months of no tracking or testing I have been at my best mentally. There has been no pressure so I have been so relaxed. The Hubby and I feel like we are back in the "honeymoon phase". I am not gonna worry about if I ovulate or not because there is nothing I can do to make it happen. I am not gonna worry about timing the horizontal polka because it is so nice being spontaneous. It is amazing how often you want it when there is no pressure! Just gonna have fun and be happy.
The Hubby left this morning on a business trip. I hate when he goes away! I know it is short, he will be back Thursday, but I still hate it. I have a hard time sleeping. I keep waking up and reaching for his hand or try to roll over and cuddle with him. We are always touching in some way while we sleep. I only get about 3 hours a night so I am going to be exhausted by Thursday. And to be completely truthful I am scared of being alone. I feel so stupid saying this, but I actually sleep with the light on low while he is gone. I have woken up in the dark freaked out when he is not here. I know, I am such a wimp.
C, my guardian angel, invited the Hubby and I to her Family and Friends Christmas Party this weekend. Today we got together to hang out and do some baking for the party. We talked and I told her about how we get to move on to the next step. She was so excited for us and so positive about the future. I can talk to her like I talk to you guys since she knows how it all feels going through it herself years ago. We talked about pregnancy, babies, life and the future and it didn't upset me. I am in such a good place. She did say something that made me smile ear to ear but also tear up a little. She told me that she can see me being pregnant and how cute I will be. I love her so much!
We baked 5 different types of cookies/desserts. I can't wait for the party. It is going to be so much fun. I have heard so many stories of everyone having a blast. It is casual and we are encourages to wear fun and cheesy Christmas attire. I will be wearing a pair of Christmas slipper socks with jingle bells on them. I have had them since I was 10. We also bring odd or wacky gifts for a fun grab bag. There will be lots of amazing food and fun! I can't wait!!!
I'm terrified of staying in my house alone. I have to lock all the doors and I'd probably die of fear if I didn't have my brave mutts who will howl at every noise. Luckily my husband just has a long commute and makes it home to bed every night.
ReplyDeleteThe months I took off of POAS were so much easier. I hated squinting at the stupid line(s) trying to figure out what they said. I hope you have a nice "honeymoon".
I get scared in my house when my husband isn't here too. But we've heard footsteps running down the hall, and whispering voices, and someone walking down the back staircase...Creepy! :) I sleep with the lights on too.
ReplyDeleteHi, Emily! I completely missed your new blog look! And you sound so happy ... I'm happy FOR you! :)
ReplyDeleteEnjoy the party ... and you'll have to tell me what you made, since I'm casting about for new recipes! Email me if you want, or leave a comment ... and hugs to you for the holidays!
Thank you for your sweet comment on my post, you're welcome to link over anytime! Glad things are moving so well for you guys!
ReplyDeleteI can totally understand the feelings you have when alone. When my husband deploys I sleep with a wooden mallet next to the bed.
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ReplyDeleteI wish I had a dog. I think I would feel a little less scared. I try to have my cat sleep in bed with me, but he does his own thing and makes lots of noise in the middle of the night to scare me more.
@Chickenpig
ReplyDeleteThat is creepy!
@jhl
ReplyDeleteThanks! I am happy. I looked on your blog and couldn't find your email. I would be happy to send them to you if you let me know what your email is. Hugz to you too!
@Rebecca
ReplyDeleteI can't imagine how you feel with him away for so long. I personally would not be able to do it. You are very strong.
I was so freaked out by Chickenpig's comment that I now have to go reread your post to have some idea of what I was going to say!!
ReplyDeleteIt is nice not worrying about it for a bit. I'll bet you two are so cute together! I have to sleep on hubby's side of the bed if he isn't there...he's taken one too many flying leaps from the bedroom door and broken his box spring, so I roll that way anyway. Sounds like an awesome party!
@aprilvak
ReplyDeleteThanks April! My Hubby is a cutie. Always a corny romantic. LOL you just make me picture my Hubby running and doing a cannonball into bed. I would kill him if he did that!
Good for you on keeping the pressure low and keeping yourself chill. Great tactic and good for you too! Yeah, I hear you about when DH are out of town -- throws your game off!
ReplyDeleteIts nice to take a wee break, we did it before starting IVF and it was lovely to feel like ourselves again :) Sad that hubby is away, I used to jump at every noise when the house was empty but since getting our dogs I feel much safer!
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@K
ReplyDeleteI wish I had a dog. My cat just ignores me at night and won't sleep in our bed.
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