I decided there will be no POAS till it is a pregnancy test! Over these past 3 months of no tracking or testing I have been at my best mentally. There has been no pressure so I have been so relaxed. The Hubby and I feel like we are back in the "honeymoon phase". I am not gonna worry about if I ovulate or not because there is nothing I can do to make it happen. I am not gonna worry about timing the horizontal polka because it is so nice being spontaneous. It is amazing how often you want it when there is no pressure! Just gonna have fun and be happy.
The Hubby left this morning on a business trip. I hate when he goes away! I know it is short, he will be back Thursday, but I still hate it. I have a hard time sleeping. I keep waking up and reaching for his hand or try to roll over and cuddle with him. We are always touching in some way while we sleep. I only get about 3 hours a night so I am going to be exhausted by Thursday. And to be completely truthful I am scared of being alone. I feel so stupid saying this, but I actually sleep with the light on low while he is gone. I have woken up in the dark freaked out when he is not here. I know, I am such a wimp.
C, my guardian angel, invited the Hubby and I to her Family and Friends Christmas Party this weekend. Today we got together to hang out and do some baking for the party. We talked and I told her about how we get to move on to the next step. She was so excited for us and so positive about the future. I can talk to her like I talk to you guys since she knows how it all feels going through it herself years ago. We talked about pregnancy, babies, life and the future and it didn't upset me. I am in such a good place. She did say something that made me smile ear to ear but also tear up a little. She told me that she can see me being pregnant and how cute I will be. I love her so much!
We baked 5 different types of cookies/desserts. I can't wait for the party. It is going to be so much fun. I have heard so many stories of everyone having a blast. It is casual and we are encourages to wear fun and cheesy Christmas attire. I will be wearing a pair of Christmas slipper socks with jingle bells on them. I have had them since I was 10. We also bring odd or wacky gifts for a fun grab bag. There will be lots of amazing food and fun! I can't wait!!!