I just got back from my trip today. I thought it would be a relaxing fun time with family and be a good thing for my 2ww. Boy was I wrong. I am so mentally and physically tired I don't know what to do with myself. So I told you about the first fiasco of the progesterone pills and now I will tell you about what happened yesterday.
I got a text from my friend B. She is pregnant. 16 weeks along. We were best friends all through middle and high school and kinda drifted apart in college. We still talk, but don't get together very often. She knows how long we have been trying, but that is basically it. When she texted me she did it in the best way she could have. She told me she was pregnant and then talked about how scared she was to tell me. She also wanted to make sure I heard from her and not through the grape vine. She also told me she hopes we are doing well with our journey and that she thinks about me often and is praying for me.
I did totally break down. I had a little hissy fit and cried. I am not happy I handled it that way, but I think it was what I needed at the time. After I collected myself I texted her back. I told her the truth. I really appreciated how she told me and it was the best thing she could have done. I told her that I am happy and excited for her and please don't take it the wrong way if I keep to myself for a bit and let it all sink in. She told me she understood and can't imagine what I am going through and that is why she was so scared, she didn't want to upset me. We texted a bit longer and the conversation ended on a really good note. I am still upset, but I am getting through.
The first thing that came to my mind is that I am going to be making another blanket for someone else. I just finished the 3rd one a couple days ago! I know I don't have to, but this is my thing. Even though it is upsetting I really enjoy making something special for the people I love. I put so much love into them and I just have to do it. Seeing how much they appreciate it helps too.
I know I have lots of time before I really have to get started on it and I will definitely be taking a crochet break. I am not touching it till at least April. I'm pretty quick so I will have more than enough time.
I am so tired of all the stress and negativity I have gone through in the past few days. I promise myself right now that tomorrows post will be a better one and over the next few days I will finally get to doing a show and tell on the 3 blankets I have done because I have been wanting to for a while.
Thank you for all your love and support. You have no idea how much I appreciate you guys! I love you!
PS: I am still trying to catch up on all your posts. Between traveling and non of the blogs I follow showing up I am behind so I am going through from the list on my blog. If you have not heard from me in a while you will soon.