Apparently both ovaries were hiding cuz she really had to dig around. She found righty and counted 6 very underdeveloped follies which will not be maturing in time for trigger (sorry I didn't get the size). I was not surprised since the whole time being on clomid I only felt lefty.
She found lefty and started counting the big ones first. I have...
1-15mm
1-14mm
and I think she said 1-13mm
There were a few more, but just like all the ones on righty, they won't be maturing.
The Dr says we are doing well. Since she doesn't know when I could possibly ovulate on my own (she says normal between 16-18mm) she wants me to come back tomorrow morning for more blood work and another US. She says I will probably trigger tomorrow night or the latest Monday night.
We are getting so close. I can't believe it. I am amazed at how calm I have been about it all. I have had this sense of peace ever since CD1. Just about an hour ago a different feeling cam over me. Fear. I have no idea where it came from or what it is about, but I don't like it. I don't think it is a fear of it not working cuz I still feel like it will work. Maybe it is a fear of it actually working. I know that is TOTALLY CRAZY! Maybe it's a fear of the unknown. I just don't know. Gonna have a talk with the Hubby and see if we can get to the bottom of it.
One last thing before I go. We went out to a Chinese buffet with our Chinese friend. While we were eating we got to talking about the Chinese zodiac and how it was the year of the dragon and how it is a "lucky" year to be born. I of course was thinking how nice it would be to have a "lucky" child.
At the end of the meal we read our fortunes. Here they are. The Hubby's is first and mine second.
We all got a good laugh out of the Hubby's cuz it is so true and before the CPAP machine he snored soooooo loud. When I read mine I was like "Duh, tell me something I don't know!"
I will update tomorrow after the appointment.
I think the fear is really normal. I read somewhere that something like 80% of women who go through IVF aren't sure they want to be pregnant. I think deep down they do, but it's scary, especially when you've been trying so hard and so long. I hope the follow-up goes well and you get to trigger sooner than later! The waiting must be so tough!
ReplyDeleteYou bet it's scary! Not getting pregnant is an end to a cycle, but getting pregnant is the beginning of a whole other scary trip, that ends with falling off a cliff into parenthood without a net! YIKES! Wonderful and terribly wanted, of course, but sooo scary :)
ReplyDeleteSounds like things are moving right along for you. That's great. I found that I was a lot more emotional that I thought I would be during the actual procedure for my first IUI. I think there was excitement, fear, grief of moving on from a natural concpetion. It's very emotional so give yourself time to feel. And good luck!
ReplyDeleteI remember once the tech had a hard time finding my left ovary and it was uncomfortable. Now I am immune to that thing. Ah, the good old cam, gotta love it.
ReplyDeleteSeems things are progressing, good luck with the trigger, just think in 2.5 weeks, you'll know. I've got a good feeling!
Yay! I felt the same way right after our IUI. I freaked out for a good 2 days about what just happened. I think it's because we've been waiting sooo long that the prospect of an actual pregnancy was terrifying! I'd like to think it's very natural because it's a monumental step and we've worked so hard to get to this point, but I also thought I was insane for thinking these thoughts. I am keeping my fingers crossed for both of us!
ReplyDeleteThe snoring one made me chuckle. Of course it applies well to men, like mine!
ReplyDeleteI remember feeling that way too. Scared that it wouldn't work but then "scared" that it would. Obviously, it's what we want most but maybe because it's always seemed so far out of reach, it's hard to imagine our lives really being different. Hoping for good things!!
ReplyDeleteSounds like things are going perfectly !!! You don't want too too many follies in there!
ReplyDeleteThe fear is normal. No matter how long or hard we've tried for this, it's still a scary thought!
woo hoo three follies. come on spermies swim swim swim!!!
ReplyDeleteSounds like a great appointment! I can't wait to hear more good news! :D
ReplyDeleteCan't wait to hear your updates!
ReplyDeleteGreat news!!!! Yay!
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