Thank you all so much for your comments and helping me see that I am not completely crazy for being scared of this actually working. The Hubby confirmed I am not crazy too. He actually said what a bunch of you did. How the next step, pregnancy and parenting, is a big step and it is going to be scary sometimes since it is completely new to us. And then he made me laugh by saying "If crazy so and so can do it then we will be fine!"
I triggered last night, but before I tell you that embarrassing story I am going to go back to yesterday morning's US and blood work.
My ovaries are apparently extremely difficult to scan. She found lefty after digging pretty hard and found a 17mm follicle (was 15mm on Saturday) and then told me I had a few 12mm and everything else was small. I asked what happened to the 14mm and 13mm she had seen the previous day. She told me because my ovaries are so difficult and all the shadowing she probably had measured 2 smaller ones together by accident. After lots more digging she found righty. On Saturday there were follicles, but they were small. This times she found a few 12mm. She moved around and double checked them. Yup, I have a few 12mm follies on righty. Oh and I forgot to write yesterday, my lining is absolutely perfect and ready to welcome our little one.
So we have 1 really good 17mm and a bunch of 12mm follies that some might grow a bit more before I ovulate. We don't know. I'm focusing on my little 17mm trooper. Hoping it is holding a perfect little egg that will become our baby.
She called me yesterday afternoon with my blood work results. My LH seems to be starting to surge so I was told to trigger last night between 8-9.
I have no problem giving blood or getting shots. I am a medical assistant. I have prepped many shots and given many shots...to other people. I thought I would be fine giving myself a shot. Its not even a IM shot its just in my belly fat! I can do that! Yea...I couldn't do that.
The Hubby was with me as I cleaned the area, prepped the shot and stood there starting to shake. We moved to the bedroom so I could lay down and give it to myself, maybe that would be easier? Nope, laid there shaking like a leaf. The Hubby had said many times that he wouldn't be able to give me a shot so I had to do it, but when he saw me so scared he asked me if I wanted him to do it. I just shook my head yes. He went and washed his hands and read the directions again even though I told him what to do. I closed my eyes, hummed a song (I don't remember what lol) and the Hubby gave it to me.
After he was done I thanked him over and over, gave him a big kiss and started to cry. He said he would do anything for me and whatever it takes to get to our baby. He got in bed with me and gently rubbed the spot he gave me the shot. Then he went lower and gently rubbed over lefty and had a little chat with the 17mm follicle. I am keeping what he said for me and close to my heart, but I will tell you he made me laugh and cry a little more. He is so amazing and keeps surprising me and melting my heart with the things he says and does. I woke up this morning feeling good. Back to relaxed an calm. Hopefully I can stay like this for tomorrow.
So tomorrow (Tuesday) is our IUI. We have to be in the office at 6:30am. We will be bringing the Hubby's sample with us. We get a much better sample in the comfort of our home and we want to have the best sample possible.
I will update tomorrow after the IUI and tell you about what I am doing Tuesday night to kick off my 2WW. The IUI landed on a perfect day.