Ok so I am 2 days away from my beta and I am starting to freak out a bit. I really really really want this to work! I have gone back and forth feeling like it did and then didn't. I still have not googled anything and it is kinda driving me crazy now, but I promised myself I WILL NOT GOOGLE, so I won't. And I have goodled so much over the past 2 years that I should know it all by now! It's funny how much you forget when you are actually in the cycle.
I want to feel something. I want to know it worked. Right now I feel nothing and haven't really since 7-9 dp IUI. Between days 7-9 I felt little twinges in places of my pelvis I have never felt. I had some strange twinges in the sides my boobs and my nipples were a little sore. I actually woke up a little nauseous at 5:30 am on day 8. I took my temp to make sure I didn't catch something from traveling, no fever, took 2 tums and went back to sleep. I felt fine after that. I am praying the twinges were implantation! Please Please Please! Since those days I have felt absolutely nothing. My boobs feel normal too.
Well, yesterday after we were outside I felt all bloated and had that pelvic dull ache like AF was gonna come. She didn't come and it only lasted maybe 20 min. I was really gassy so I just figured it was that. Who knows.
I have read some of your past posts, your 2WWs to see what people have felt. I know everyone is different so I am not taking everything I read to heart. I just feel lost right now.
They Hubby decided to take Tuesday off from work to be with me. My psyc didn't want me to be alone waiting for the news and especially if it turns out to be a BFN. The Hubby thought it was a good idea too. I was also thinking along the lines of if we do get a BFP then I would want us to find out together instead of me waiting for him to get home from work. I feel crazy.
I am starting to get nervous and that turns my stomach and intestines into a wreck. Help!
Hang in there. These last few days are always the hardest. Try to find something to distract yourself if you can. When all else fails for me, I color. And plan something nice for yourself on Tuesday either way, like a manicure or a new pair of shoes. I'm glad your hubby will be with you.
ReplyDeleteHere from ICLW. I wish you all the luck in finding out your BETA. I too stayed home from work when I got my news. I've read too many blogs of women crying in the bathroom at work and trying to figure out how to keep their face from looking a mess while they run back to their desks and try to go home. And if it would be positive, work is not the place I would want to be either. Mine was a BFN, but hoping yours is BFP! Your symptoms sound promising from what I've googled obsessively. :) Google actually kept me hopeful. I would google until I found what I wanted to hear. :)
ReplyDeleteI don't know how your not googling?! I'm so proud of you, you have no idea!! Only two more days!!!
ReplyDeleteOh man I'd be POAS and googling. I know I won't be able to resist it this time around either. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad hubby will be home with you!! Either way it goes, I feel better when mine is with me.
ReplyDeleteI can't believe how strong you have been not googling! Hope you get your BFP!
ReplyDeleteTwinges sound promising! I also went back and forth between it working and not working the day before I found out. Keep the hope up! I've got my fingers crossed for you guys!
ReplyDeleteJust want you to know my fingers are crossed for you!! And yay for not googling! I'm the QUEEN of googling symptoms! lol.
ReplyDeleteI feel ya girl! I'm on the "no googling" side too-it drives me crazy and I can ALWAYS find some symptom that points to pregnancy (and I've never actually been pregnant:) ) so for me it just has set me up to be extra disappointed! The more I google, the more I think about it, and the less I think about it the better!
ReplyDeleteI will be thinking good thoughts for a BFP!
I'm thinking good thoughts for you! That's sweet of your husband to take the day off, it sounds like a terrific idea to me.
ReplyDeleteI'm with you totally on all of the above.... I'm 4 days away from my BETA and feel like I'm losing my mind! I had a meltdown about it today and felt better after a good cry. The pressure is so intense... Hang in there! Well done for not googling. I also know all the symptoms after 2 years of trying which makes it hard. If it makes you feel better, I'm nervous too. You need to acknowledge your feelings - this is good. So glad that you have taken the day off and your hub will be with you. Fingers crossed for you honey and big hugs!
ReplyDeleteGood luck this cycle!! It's really hard to resist Googling symptoms. I will have my first IUI pretty soon myself.
ReplyDeleteThe 2ww is the devil. I'm super impressed by your ability to resist the lure of google on pee sticks. I wish I had your strength.
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