Thursday, January 19, 2012

thought vomit thursday

I am joining the Thought Vomit Thursday crowd today with a last min post. I'm gonna try some bullets so here we go!

  • Speaking of vomit...my kitty hasn't been feeling well for a couple of months. He usually coughs up a hairball every couple months, but has been puking more often over the last month with no sign of hairballs. He is acting the same and isn't losing weight. I took him to the vet and they are running blood and other tests on him. While I was away Purcey was sleeping on the Hubby's chest and all of a sudden started with the gagging he does before he pukes. The Hubby tried to get him off in time, but it was too late. Purcey puked all over his crotch and down his leg! I told him it was good practice for when our children puke on him! LOL! He laughs about it now.
  • I am currently 9dp IUI and extremely proud of myself. I have not googled anything! I actually stopped myself from googling about a month ago so I wouldn't drive myself crazy. Don't get me wrong, I have had major urges to look stuff up, but I have stayed strong!
  • Last week my psyc gave me homework. It was specifically started to keep me in a good place if I do get a BFN, but is a good thing to do all around. Like a lot of you have done in some form too, she told me to write down 3 things I am thankful/grateful for every day specifically for that day and most importantly why I am thankful/grateful for it. They don't have to be huge, some of the stuff I have written down seemed insignificant, but at the time it was important to me and she says it's good. I think you should try it. Especially the why.
  • I have been pretty calm and relaxed (except for the shit that went down while away) since the IUI. The thought that keeps me going is "We have done everything we can, given it the best chance we got and now it is out of our hands" That has worked till this morning. I just woke up with no hope. I just feel it didn't work.
  •  Jules from The Road Less Traveled had a post yesterday about thinking about your future with "when" ranter than "if". In her post she talks about how she felt a panic attack coming on until she forced herself to imagine her "best future", being pregnant and in the 3rd trimester with a huge belly. It calmed her down and she fell asleep happy. After reading that I realized I have never allowed myself to imagine myself pregnant. Never have I dreamed of having a pregnant belly. She inspired me. I am going to picture myself pregnant while going to sleep tonight and pray that I have a pregnancy dream (which I have never had either) and wake up feeling better.
  • Last thing, to keep my mind off things and give me a good laugh during my 2WW I decided to watch Cheers from the beginning. I actually started while I was still on clomid. It has been such a good thing. I forgot how much I loved that show and how funny it was. Granted it started a year before I was born, but I used to watch it with my Mom when I was younger and watched reruns when I was older. Every time I hear the theme song the words reminded me of you guys and the IF community.
 Making your way in the world today takes everything you've got.
Taking a break from all your worries, sure would help a lot.

Wouldn't you like to get away?


Sometimes you want to go


Where everybody knows your name,

and they're always glad you came.
You wanna be where you can see,
our troubles are all the same
You wanna be where everybody knows
Your name.

You wanna go where people know,

people are all the same,
You wanna go where everybody knows
your name.
You guys are my Cheers.

PS: I decided to get rid of disqus since blogger now lets you reply, hopefully I will like it.

13 comments:

  1. After transfers I always try to picture the embryos, snuggling in a growing, and then imagining my belly getting bigger. It really does help to keep a positive outlook...at least for the 2ww :) Fingers crossed that you get your BFP! xxx

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    1. I had a positive outlook till yesterday. Any "symptoms" I have I just blame on the progesterone.

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  2. Oh, I'm so glad you were inspired by my post!! That makes me feel warm and squishy inside. :) Praying that this is it for you, but if this time isn't it, just remember you still have a lot of options!

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    1. Yea I went to sleep feeling pretty good imagining being very pregnant.

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  3. Jules is so right about that whole theory of if vs. when. I have been fighting that with myself this week. Because we all will find a way to be a mom no matter what it entails. When is the big day to test?

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    1. Yea I know I will be a mom some day, just wishing it's sooner than later. I go for my blood test on Tuesday.

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  4. Good job staying away from Googling and keeping mostly upbeat during this 2WW. ;) I know most of my cycles I'd drive myself insane wanting to POAS. It was only towards the end that I managed to get myself under control because I just didn't believe anymore. Guess what happened?! Yeah, 2 lines and I didn't believe! lol. It does happen! And you're on your way to make it happen!

    Thanks for the news about Blogger allowing reply now, I didn't know that. Will have to think about stopping Disqus. Did all your comments stay when you stopped using Disqus?

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    1. Comments stayed, but the replies are now out of order. Oh I hope my blood comes back positive(cuz I refuse to POAS)

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  5. Good luck on Tuesday! I wish you all the best.

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  6. Good job staying away from google! As you said, you have done everything you could have to get to this point, nothing more could have been done andyou need to trust that. Trust the md's but more importantly your body and self.
    Keep up the positive thoughts but DON'T beat yourself up about the lack of pregnancy dreams. So many girls had them, blog about them, and it drove me crazy I didn't have any. I beleive we do, we just dont remember them bc our minds know the real thing is so much better and want us to be surprised :)

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    1. I really do like surprises! Thanks!

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  7. 3 thought vomit replies: I love Cheers! Hope your cat is ok. I am amazed at your willpower to stay away from google!! :)

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