and now we wait...

and wait...and wait.

This morning was IUI #4. I feel like I have done this a million times even though it's only #4. The routine is always the same. We get up early, collect the Hubby's sample and it travels with us to the office in my bra to keep his spermies warm. We drop it off and then head down to the cafeteria for some breakfast while they prepare the sample.

I was really excited about this cycle. We have 3 beautiful follicles and the Hubby is convinced we are gonna have twins or triplets. As we were eating we had a little conversation that made the both of us happy and relaxed.

Me: I really hope this is the last time we will be having breakfast waiting for an IUI.

Hubby: Well, at least till we try for our second.

Me: (with a big smile on my face) Or third.

Hubby: (laughing) Maybe.

Me: (with an even bigger smile) Or fourth!

Hubby: (laughing even harder) We will see!

I stayed relaxed and hopeful until we found out the post wash number. It wasn't as good as our first 2 IUIs, but better than our 3rd. It is still not as good as they would like to see for an IUI. I had the Dr that I don't like. She doesn't talk much and basically just does the IUI and leaves. Both Dr G and the optimistic Dr are so much better. They talk to us and reassure me that even though the count isn't that good, it only takes one and there is always a chance. I know they would have also stressed we have a better chance since we have 3 beautiful follicles.

I say all that stuff over and over in my head, but it's different when someone says it to you. It's easier to believe others than myself. I haven't talked to the Hubby about how I am feeling yet. I know I have to. I will tonight.

I definitely ovulated today. From the moment I woke up I could feel my belly getting more and more bloated. Then, on the drive home from the IUI the pain started. When I came home I went straight to bed and slept 3 hours. When I woke up I was so bloated I couldn't button my pants! It took another 4 hours, but the bloat and pain finally went down. I still have twinges every once in a while and still a little bloated, but it is so much better.

I always believe the cycle is going to work and then the sperm count knocks me down. I hate now I have to wait 2 weeks. I wish I could just get it over with now. And, it doesn't help that I will be going to a baby shower the day before my beta.