I've gone for a few U/S over the past week. I didn't post anything because there wasn't much to talk about. I haven't been paying attention to what they showed. I'm kinda just distancing myself from it all this time. I figure I am doing what I am supposed to do and the Dr will take care of the rest. There is nothing I can do to change the outcome if I know what's going on or not.
I did pay attention a little bit yesterday morning. I apparently have at least 1 good follicle on each side, maybe more. Sounds good to me. Either way the spermies swim there will hopefully be an egg waiting for them. Last night I did my trigger shot of ovidrel and we go for IUI #5 tomorrow (Friday) morning.
I think I am going to tell the Dr to not tell me the sperm count. In the past it has always brought me down. Maybe without knowing I can just let it be.
I really think this distancing myself from this cycle is really working well for me. I'm really relaxed and focusing on other things. I went for a massage this morning and let my body and mind relax so much I almost fell asleep. I haven't done that since before we started IUIs. Leaving there I felt calm and refreshed. I am going to try and keep that up over the 2WW and beyond.
I also got some news this morning that made me really happy. My favorite massage therapist is coming back! Lets call her Miss Magic Hands. When I started getting massages I used to go to whoever was free. The first time I had MMH everything changed. From the moment I met her we had a cool connection and I felt really comfortable with her. She really worked with my body and I felt great when I left. The next time I asked for her. We would talk a little bit while I was on the table and I decided to open up to her about my infertility and tell her we were gearing up to do treatments. She then opened up to me. She had a very difficult time conceiving too. They were in no rush and decided if it happened great and if it didn't that was fine too. They had a very active lifestyle. It took over a year and then she miscarried at 6 months. It was extremely stressful on her marriage and they ended up getting a divorce. She has a boyfriend and is happy where her life is.
After we opened up she told me she would help me however she could to relax and prepare my body to conceive. She focused on specific pressure points and did reflexology on my feet which felt absolutely amazing. She also focused on the nerve damage and edema in my lower back from breaking my tail bone years ago. It was amazing how much it helped with the pain. I have no idea if the reflexology and pressure points helped with me ovulating since I wasn't doing OPKs or temping at the time, but it sure felt great.
Unfortunately a bit before we started treatments she decided to move back home to Kentucky. I was upset she was leaving because she became a great friend. We had lots in common (including the same tattoo artist) and we were going to hang out. I was going to go see her band too.
My current massage therapist was all excited to tell me MMH was coming back. She is also friends with her and knows how much I liked her. She knew I have a connection with her and didn't mind if I went back to seeing her instead.
So I can't wait till I see her next month! Even though I miss her and can't wait to see her I am hoping this cycle I get pregnant and will have to wait till my third month in to see her again. I know she will be so excited and happy for me. She actually told me when I first opened up to her that she couldn't wait to do prenatal massages on me. Hoping and praying that is sooner than later.