I was in an unfamiliar bathroom. When I wiped I realized I started bleeding pretty heavily and proceeded to ball my eyes out. I don't know if I was miscarrying or if I was just getting my period, but I was crying harder than I remember ever crying before. When I left the bathroom a huge group of women surrounded me, comforting me. I couldn't make out any faces, but I knew who they were. They were all of you. My beautiful bloggy friends. Thank you for that.
Back to real life.
I stayed in bed for a while just thinking about that dream and a wave of fear rushed over me. I got up, went to the bathroom and I was spotting. It has been and still is brown. It always seems like a lot when I wipe, but never enough to reach the liner. I always spot like this before my period so I am upset and feel like it's over. I know I am only on CD24/11DPO, but there is another thing that makes me think it's over. When I actually ovulate my nipples always hurt from 2DPO till a day or so before AF comes. My nipples went from extremely painful to absolutely nothing yesterday.
I guess I will keep some hope since it's not over till it's over. I just don't feel good about it.
I will be keeping busy till my beta on Sunday. I am still crocheting my butt off trying to finish this baby blanket for B's shower on Saturday. I will finish in time. I don't have a lot to go. I promise I will take pics and do another show and tell when I am done.
This week we also started/continued a big project outside. We finally had someone come take out the rest of the bushes around our house. They were overgrown long before we moved in and were totally overpowering. We are starting from scratch and it looks great already. The house is totally naked right now, but over the weekend the guys will be back to dig up some more roots and then do lots of planting. I will post about it when we are done. I will have before and after shots.
I will leave you today with a pic of our lonely little azalea bush that has been thriving even though it's almost completely covered by other bushes. We saved it and hopefully it will fill out more over time. This was after it rained the other day.